Dear 38 Year Old Self,
First off, happy happy birthday. You don’t look a day over 40.
Here are some things that I need you to know as you step into this 38th chapter:
You’ve come a long way baby.
This is the chapter where your mind shifts. This is where you believe in yourself. This is where you stop referring to yourself as a mess and start referring to yourself as whole, exactly as you are.
This is when you own your life.
You are worth more than you think.
You are so much braver than you think.
Take up space with your grit and your grace.
Hiding will not make any of your problems go away. Face them bright eyes. Stare them down. Take care of them. Make the change. And keep moving forward.
On prior birthdays you wanted a party or a fancy night out, this year you’ll be hoping that there will be enough time to grab Chipotle before spending the evening listening to an elementary school concert to hear your twins play the viola and the cello. It will be every bit, if not more, meaningful.
Self care needs to be a requirement of your everyday.
Sunscreen. I think this might be the year that we should really start caring about that.
Drink more water. We should care more about that too.
Drink more wine with the people you love. Ding ding ding- we have a winner.
Sell the houses. Write the words. Hug your babies that are growing too fast. Repeat daily.
There is enough time for every single thing that you still want to do.
Shoot your arrow eternally upward.
Keep laughing too loud.
Keep not settling.
Keep choosing you.
Keep saying no to the things that no longer serve you.
Keep holding your scars and your edges and your flaws as badges of honor that prove a life well filled with falling and rising again and again.
Keep surrounding yourself with the hand holders and the joy seekers and the bridge builders and those who see you. Really see you.
This is the year that you don’t just chase the light. You become it.
This is your year.
You’ve got this kid.
Here’s to a new chapter.
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Katie Yackley Moore is a freelance writer, yoga instructor and a momma of four navigating life and a separation and finding herself in the process. She adores coffee shops, laughing until it hurts and impromptu dance parties. Her work has appeared on Scary Mommy, Mamalode and HuffPost Parents. She has published a journal entitled “Dream a Bigger Dream” and the children’s books “You Are a Warrior” and “We are Family” and just finished her first novel. Catch up with her between tea breaks at The Naked Momma and on Facebook.