I know you are a tired momma.
I know you are tired momma.
I know how long those days can be.
I know how interrupted those nights can feel.
I know how much you give to others and how little is left for you.
I know how this body and this mind almost feel unattached to you.
I know your hours and limbs feel like someone else’s and ownership is something that you only used to know.
I know you raise your voice sometimes, especially when you don’t want to.
I know the avalanche of guilt that follows.
I know that you question if there will ever be enough time.
I know that you question if you are enough.
I know that the day has a way of being so full and so fleeting and so repetitive at once and you ache at the dizziness of it all.
I know there are moments so challenging that you want to escape.
I know there are moments so full of magic and all-encompassing gratitude that you will want to savor and yearn for more.
I know that there are moments that make you question if you are even seen, if your voice is even heard no matter how loud, soft or shaken and you wonder if they will remember the sweetness or the struggle.
I know that you have to take care of yourself, momma.
I know that you are a better momma when you remember that you are human, in all of your flaws, grit and glory.
You are not alone.
You need to be relentless in doing the things that bring you joy.
You need to be relentless in being you.
They will grow. They need you to flourish.
That newborn cry through the night will eventually fade.
That baby will not wriggle off the changing table forever.
That two year old will one day not kick you in the shopping cart.
That three year old in a puddle at your feet about wanting to tie his own shoes even though he doesn’t know how to tie, will one day be able to do it himself.
It will be hard.
It will all evolve.
It will all be worth it.
That is a promise.
In the journey of being everything to someone else, please do not lose yourself.
You can still be the heroine of your own story as you raise your own super heroes.
I know you are tired momma.
Thank you for relentlessly showing up anyway.
You are enough.
Always have been.
Always will be.
Katie’s essay and tangent collection about motherhood, life and imperfection, Happy Broken Crayons is available on Amazon now. Thank you for reading. You are the (queen) bees knees. Happy happy holidays and happy happy new year to you. In setting your hopes for 2018, please think about your word. I can’t wait to hear it. Xoxo
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Katie Yackley Moore is a freelance writer, yoga instructor and a momma of four navigating life and a separation and finding herself in the process. She adores coffee shops, laughing until it hurts and impromptu dance parties. Her work has appeared on Scary Mommy, Mamalode and HuffPost Parents. She has published a journal entitled “Dream a Bigger Dream” and the children’s books “You Are a Warrior” and “We are Family” and just finished her first novel. Catch up with her between tea breaks at The Naked Momma and on Facebook.